“Friends and love ones come and go.”
Reasons why people walk in and out of your life whether easily or not, it doesn’t matter anymore. I faced enough of such situations whereby whether did I caused it to happen or they have changed not.
Knowing my personality so well, indeed developed a hatred for myself. At times the problem really lies in me, but at times it do really lies in those people that I have cherished alot.
There were friends that I loved with my life. But things changed, maybe is my own doing or rather it is, caused everything to change. Words that I had said countless of time, feelings that I had expressed over and over again just won’t work anymore. True enough, people get sick of it over the long run, even myself.
Being so much dramatic over the years of my life made me realized only til now why do I behaved in this way. In fact, I dared not say did I understand the reasons well enough not. My past few relationships, wait, or rather not really true relationships that I have truly love them, enlightened me that maybe I just need them to fill in the empty space in my heart where my dad had left it.
Right now I had really fell in love with a guy whom we knew each other for about seven months. We started to know each other as friends, developing our friendship to a next step through understanding each others’ pain and misery, and lastly became the best friendship I ever had. I have never protected a friend til a certain extent nor cared a friend these much. Realizing that I had unknowingly fell in love with him only til he opened his mouth and said, “Let’s settle down.”. Suddenly that night seems to brighten up like I have never seen before.
Slowly, things changed… Words that had said to hurt me, attitude that scares me and lastly ignorance that kills me. Yes I did disappointed him in some ways, but all I did it is because I cared for him. Indeed everything is over, not even can be best friends like how it used to be.
All these experiences taught me a lesson, and I have changed. It’s time for me to leave these friends before they leave me. What hurts me the most is not about not hanging with them anymore but the memories that we once had together.
My love and memories will always keep in my heart, and will never lose it.
Smile, Geraldteeo
